Not what you expected right?
Me neither. Until it smacked me right in the face and shook me up. As a general rule, I don’t like to be smacked or shaken, but this was different. Perhaps awakening is a better description.
I really try not to compare myself to others, but time and again I see all kinds of people around me who just seem to navigate life better than I do.
In celebration of Easter and all that Christ has done for me, I chose to live that day in joy. Every so often, the beauty of spending the day with people I love celebrating The One I love was interrupted by niggling thoughts of what I needed to do. None of those “things” was immediate, yet I could feel the tension rising. Tension about what I had to do and worry that I might forget.
Several times I silently and mentally told myself to stop. For maybe the first time in my life, I minded my own wise advice. I stopped thinking, resumed gratitude for the day and enjoyed my family.
I later pondered this habit of mine to engage in busy thoughts. Truthfully, I am no busier than anyone else and less so overall than many. Yet the angst of busyness dogs me often. And the more I think on it, the further behind I get (at least in my head). As it turns out, a lot of my resulting busyness is simply all-consuming thoughts.
Managing thought process IS controllable. And I very much like to exercise control. So I set out 8 days ago to dismantle the B-U-S-Y in my life.
Day one went well. I wasn’t a slave to others’ expectations. I set a realistic outline of the day for myself and I actually stuck to it. And when I didn’t over perform–gasp–nothing bad happened to me.
I experienced a few struggles throughout the week. After all, everyone’s workplace rightfully has some demands and of course our families and friends have needs and wants to be addressed as well.
It’s unrealistic to expect life will never get busy. The key is managing the busy when it comes and not creating it when it doesn’t. By being mindful of what I can prepare for without repeating to myself every hour just how busy I am, I will eliminate several hours of angst, anger, or anxiety every week. Time I can gratefully use to pursue joy.